E is for Exhaustion.
This is my first semester being a homeschool mom. Things have changed a lot since I was the home-schooled kid. My mom was my teacher with answer keys and lesson plans. Anything I learned, I learned from her. Now things are different. Thus, homeschooling is not what I expected.
In some ways it’s easier. Marie has a teacher so I don’t have to to know all the answers (although I should at grade levels 1 and 2). Her learning is all completely online. Her time with teachers is via webcam every day. So really, I don’t have to lift a finger.
In other ways, it’s a lot harder. When I start something new I go all in and go a little crazy. I typically spend a few hours every day creating my own worksheets for Marie to further help her understand the concepts being taught in the program. On top of that I spend time teaching her these concepts as well. My opinion is that an online course alone is not enough – particularly with Marie’s disability.
This all leaves me feeling exhausted.
I have been tired out by the kids before. But now it’s even more so. Sometimes, by the time Mr. Sexy gets home all I can do is hand off the baby and sit like a zombie while I watch a Grey’s Anatomy re-run. And the next day I choose to do it all over again.
Why? Well, apparently I care about Marie, her education and her future.